Thursday, January 9, 2014

Let Go

Psalm 46:10 - "Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!"

Colossians 4:2 - Continue steadfastly in prayer, being watchful in it with thanksgiving.

II Peter 1:3-4 - His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence, by which he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become par takers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world because of sinful desire.

Dear God, I want to trust that You are in control of everything, but then I question it because Tom unnecessarily hurt me. And the way he did it makes things that much harder and worse for me. All the while, he sits there and talks about grace this and grace that yet nothing he did with regard to me showed grace. Real grace would have actually talked to me when he created the conflict. Real grace would have kept the promises and the compromise he made regarding Facebook. Real grace would talk to me even now in order to maybe either work toward restoration as the Bible says we are to do in both Romans 12 and II Corinthians 13:11 or to provide true closure. Real grace would not have ever done what Tom did nor in the manner in which he did it. Tom knows nothing about real grace as evidenced in the way he mistreated me. Neither does his church as evidenced in the way they abused me and repeatedly violated scripture with regard to me because they hate people with special needs and they hate You and the work Your Son did. I'm sorry that they hurt people instead of actually ministering to and with them. God, I have a confession. I actually half hearted lay wished that lightning would strike Tom's house last night during the storms. I know it's mean, but that's how bad he hurt me. The pain he caused me is unjustified and unnecessary. We both made missteps, so why am I the only one being unfairly, unjustly, and unnecessarily punished and hurt? I can allow one more week for Tom to willingly and voluntarily engage in the needed conversation with me because that is what grace would do. If he does that AND reinstates Facebook, then I will file an official letter to drop the complaint against him. If not, then that's where I let go and allow You to do what is necessary to bring about action from the presbytery. If that results in both him and me being brought under discipline, so be it, because at least proper church discipline is a redemptive process. Oak Mountain does not practice the discipline they claim to believe in. If it did, Tom would not have hurt me and they would not have abused me. In Jesus' Name, Amen!

Be Still and Know by Rebecca St. James

Alone in the valley
I cried for You to fill me with
Your peace
So when the lightning strikes
Thunder rolls around me
Still I live in peace
You ask that I

Be still and know 
You are God
Be still and know 
You are God
You are God

When the fires rage
When the storm surrounds me
Still I live in peace
Though the mountains fall
Crash into the ocean
Still I live in peace
You ask that I

Be still and know
You are God
Be still and know 
You are God

You ask that I

Be still and know
You are God
Be still and know
You are God

You are God

Lead me through the valley
Lead me by the streams
Restore me and draw me to You God

To You I lift my soul
To You who makes me whole
Gently You hold me close to You
Ooh...close to You...ooh

Be still and know
You are God
Be still and know 
You are God
Be still and know
You are God
Be still and know
You are God

Be still and know 
You are God
Be still and know
You are God

You are God

You're near me
You love me
You hold me
You reach me
You still me
You move me
You draw me to You God

You're near me
You love me
You hold me
You reach me
You still me
You move me
You draw me to You God

You are God
You are God

You are God
You are God

You still me
You draw me to You

You are God
 You are God

When the fires rage
Still I live in peace

You are God

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