Saturday, January 4, 2014

A New Habit

Psalm 63:2 - So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary, beholding your power and glory.

Psalm 139:7-10 - Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take with the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me. 

Isaiah 40:11 - He will tend to his flock like a shepherd; he will gather the lambs in his arms; he will carry them in his bosom, and gently lead those that are with young.

Psalm 63 - My Soul Thirsts for You

O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water. So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary, beholding your power and glory. Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you. So I will bless you as long as I live; in your name I will lift up my hands. My soul will be satisfied as with fat and rich food, and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips, when I remember you upon my bed, and meditate on you in the watches of the night; for you have been my help, and in the shadow of your wings I will sing for joy. My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me. But those who seek to destroy my life shall go down into the depths of the earth; they shall be given over to the power of the sword; they shall be a portion for jackals. But the king shall rejoice in God; all who swear by him shall exult, for the mouths of liars will be stopped.

Dear God, I want to believe and I want to trust You. But I am too scared. Because the last person I trusted screwed up so badly and hurt me so deeply that I am afraid to trust You. My trust has been shaken and it is not easy for me to trust anyone, let alone a God whom I am just unsure of more now than ever. I do see in Psalm 63 though that You will deal with him and the others that have hurt me so much as to cause me to stumble. God, he used the excuse of having to be a shepherd to the flock. The problem is that his analogy is weak because the way a GOOD shepherd is described, the good shepherd will leave the flock to go in search and rescue of the one who is lost. And heaven will rejoice so much more for that one than for all the others. Again, God, you know my heart with regard to Tom right now, and you know that I desire to do II Corinthians 13:11 and seek peace and aim for restoration. Soften his heart for a conversation that is much needed so that I can finally move forward no matter what direction that may be. In Jesus' Name, Amen!

Avalon - Hide My Soul (YouTube)

Here I am with nothing left to say
How can I even speak?
All my dreams lie scattered
Like ashes beneath my feet

Can you see the pain behind the smiles
The tears run down my face
Will the sun ever shine on me again?

Where can I hide? Oh oh
Where can I hide? Oh oh oh
Where can I hide? Oh oh oh

I will hide my soul in Jesus
I will rest my heart in Him
When the storms of life rush over me
I will not let them in

There will be no pain in heaven
But for now and until then
I will hide my soul in Jesus

Now I know there's nothing I can do
Nothing that I can say
You alone are the anchor of my soul
Don't let me slip away

Can you see the pain behind my smile
The tears run down my face
Will the sun ever shine on me again?

Where can I hide? Oh oh
Where can I hide? Oh oh oh
Where can I hide? Oh oh oh

I will hide my soul in Jesus
I will rest my heart in Him
When the storms of life rush over me
I will not let them in

There will be no pain in heaven
But for now and until then
I will hide my soul in Jesus

Where can I hide? Oh oh
Where can I hide? Oh oh oh
Where can I hide? Oh oh oh

I will hide my soul in Jesus
I will rest my heart in Him
When the storms of life rush over me
I will not let them in

There will be no pain in heaven
But for now and until then
I will hide my soul
I will hide my soul in Jesus

I will hide my soul 
No pain, no pain in heaven
In heaven
I will hide my soul in Jesus
There will be no pain in heaven

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