Friday, June 22, 2012

An Open Letter

Dear God,
Today I found out that the very people who were supposed to be "caring" for me and "loving me well" during the past 7-9 months really have been doing nothing but double talk. They have said one thing yet done another. Today I found out that my church will never truly be a church because it will never honor all of Your words. Today I found out that You don't really accept special needs people because the church is supposed to be a reflection of you and does not accept special needs people. Today I found out that my church does not really believe or practice biblical restoration of relationships and will not ever as they refuse to allow me to have restoration with my pastor. Today I found out that the past 7-9 months have essentially been a waste of time, energy and effort as today I found out that no matter what I do and no matter how hard I try, I will NEVER be accepted there and the very people who called themselves a team are not going to help any. Today I have evidence of betrayal. Today I have seen that I cannot trust anyone, not even You. Today what was left of my already broken and fragile heart shattered completely and finally. I tried. I failed. IF the intent of the people calling themselves a team was to PUSH me FURTHER AWAY FROM You, then they have succeeded. I'm sorry God. I tried.
Sincerely,
SES

If Churches Are Reflections of God...

If churches are reflections of God and decide to pick and choose the parts of the Bible that it will follow and the parts that it will not follow, what does this say about what God will do in terms of whether or not he will keep His word?

If churches are reflections of God and choose not to honor Jesus by including people with special needs in their community, their worship, service (volunteering), and other activities, what does this say about whether or not God will truly accept the people with special needs?

If churches are reflections of God and exclude people, regardless of whether the person has special needs or not, what does this say about God?

If churches are reflections of God, they have a long way to go to PROVE that God can be trusted!